Confabulation and Dealing with Stressors

Every targeted individual starts to look for some explanation or answers for what is going on. Talking to close ones will give you no answers. You will get some questions like “what have you done?”, “who could do stuff like that?”, “whats the purpose of it?”. All valid questions, but one can only speculate. It’s impossible to put what is happening in layman terms for average person without appearing paranoid or suffering from delusions, especially if trying to talk as if it’s happening to you. The questions are loaded too since they assume guilt on your part. So attempt to answer right away puts in precarious situation, where you’re exploring possibility that you might have done something to deserve be tortured in most medieval fashion. Lack of information and historical context makes it very hard to asses it if viewed from any perspective of intellectual mindset except psychiatry. Most of targeted individuals seems to be just that – average Joes. So next thing is usually browsing internet for related information. That’s there confabulation comes in:

A memory of an event or situation is like a jigsaw puzzle. It is made up of many pieces of information, that when fitted together, create a clear picture of what occurred. Individuals who have difficulty paying attention or encoding information do not have all the pieces for the puzzle, resulting in an incomplete picture or memory. The brain, recognizing that the picture is incomplete, searches it’s memory banks for other pieces of information that look like they would fit and inserts these pieces into the puzzle. A cursory look would lead one to believe the puzzle was whole and therefore the information related by the individual is factual. However, a more careful look would reveal that some pieces may seem to fit, but are really from a different puzzle.

I doubt any of the targeted folks do really know how it works and how it goes and more importantly why. Keeping in mind that disinformation, misinformation and poison pills in all colors of the rainbow (probably produced by those million wise monkeys working in groups of three trained by don’t be evil “deepmind” algorithm trying to discharge out of them works of Shakespeare) are probably scattered around for you to swallow you have to be careful to go easy route and apply everything you read to yourself. You have to come to terms that most of information is not clear. Some historic frameworks like modern Police disruption tactics, Stasi Zersetzung, CIA Mkultra, FBI CounterIntelpro might provide insight into problem, but it still fails to answer many questions. There is a risk of forming new belief system that is not based on evidence or personal experience, but on association and plasticity of the mind. Mind hates vacuum so it’s natural for it to try to answer pressing questions in any way possible. This discomfort of unknown and unexplainable is scary, but should be accepted so you can always reassess the situation and investigate new evidence objectively as it comes into picture. Person tends to be protective of his beliefs and sometimes try to adjust perception naturally in order to fit those beliefs. That is a barrier to being a witness of ongoing crime. Of course for some targeted individuals constant harassment is unbearable and all they can think of is how do I stop it? I’ve yet to see any successful documented method where targeted person was able to win and stop it. I’ve come to terms that you can only expect windows in time where external intrusions (acoustic, visual or other stimuli) into awareness do not exist. I’ve theorized that it could be deliberate since it provides illusion of control where you are provided with multiple fails and disappointments daily. So if you think back that something you’ve done might influenced adversary action and start to celebrate the victory, only to find yourself under another attack. It is important to try to separate stimuli from the overall threat into two separate categories. Even though stimuli itself should be reinforcer and reminder of threat, but in itself is not dangerous. Danger is how it’s perceived and ignition of stress and anxiety. There has been a lot of research into stress, anxiety and PTSD prevention, dealing and coping. No universal method, but it should be important to try reading and trying to help yourself. Your perception and cognition is just as unique as your fingerprint, but some common ground exist among all of us. This research:
Integrating Fast and Slow Cognitive Processes
( local copy) provides quite workable framework on how to separate and deal with threat and stressors.

Human reactions appear to be controlled by two separate types of mental processes: one fast, automatic, and unconscious and the other slow, deliberate, and conscious. With the attention in the literature focused on the taxonomy of the two processes, there is little discussion of how they interact. In this paper, we focus on modeling the slower process’s ability to inhibit the fast process. We present computational cognitive models in which different strategies allow a human to consciously inhibit an undesirable fast response. These general strategies include (a) blocking sensory input, (b), blocking or interrupting the fast process’s response, and (c) slowing down or delaying processing by introducing additional task.

So if you think of slow process as awareness of unknown threat of being persecuted by organized means and fast process as reaction to stimuli that constantly reinforces the overall threat separating the two might be constructive way to reduce of pouring oil into the fire. Blocking sensory input eg putting in earplugs might be a good strategy to start. It’s impossible to block all sound, but reduction of acoustic intrusions will provide some relief and some perceived level of control. You just have to be aware of the fact that after really stressful period human body is almost habituated to these stress chemicals so in a some ways it’s like being an addict that is going through withdrawal. It’s just natural reaction to unnatural stress.

Then there is another research that is quite interesting “The impact of acceptance-based versus avoidance-based protocols on discomfort”:

The experimenter clarified that realizing the presence of the sounds and doing nothing is similar to noticing the pants touching your legs while seating or walking, similar to noticing the watch touching your wrist and doing nothing with that feeling, to noticing the glasses leaning on your nose and doing nothing with it, or to noticing your heart beating and doing nothing with it.

I know it’s sounds crazy and impossible, but It is Gordian knot type situation and minimizing disruption without avoiding unavoidable should be top priority. If you produce positivity instead of negativity you will feel way more power. Instead of being destroyed you will feed on stalking energy. You can’t hate object of your investigation. It’s not possible. So if you notice “perp”, be curious, but not negative. Look at it as if it’s something to be explored. It’s possible that you made mistake. Assess your stress levels. Chemist doesn’t stop experimenting with some materials just because they stink. If it’s hard to generate positivity try imagining adversary as sitting in beach sipping a margarita or anything that he might like. It’s totally unexpected and by being positive you will inhibit disruption process. Maybe that’s what Jesus meant “Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you”.  It’s not about helping them, it’s about restoring balance of things, not to mention that whole acoustic assault thing could be just very nasty and military grade illusion of hostile power thousands of miles away that is using some superior technology to play some neurological tricks pitting neighbors against each other.

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